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Day 1 (sort of)


I feel a little lost, but mainly because I planned for this to be day one, the commencement, the start the... nothing. It was just the first interview to go over the process and give me one more chance to back out. I didn’t back out, I thought about it, cried over it, but still signed up for it.

I weighed in gave myself 243 days to lose 42 pounds.

My biggest struggle is to trust the process. I struggle with trust on a good day, but when I am trusting professional strangers to provide me with the answers I have spent my life looking for, wishing for and dreaming of... it’s hard to trust.

The coordinator even touched on the fact that some of the people start out believing it’s a scam, herself included. A team of people to guide you on a custom program and they’re going to reimburse you everything when you hit your goal – scam.

The saving grace and deciding factor for me is – there is nothing but food on this program. There are no pills, supplements, protein shakes, cleanses or detox. It’s using food as a medicine to correct what ails you, based on your own DNA. It’s a program of fitness, portion control and whole foods with the guidance to use them together and correctly.

The coming week will be full of the process, a saliva test to start the genetic testing, an interview and fitness test with a registered dietitian, a resting metabolic test and patience while the program is designed for me.

Then in 3 weeks a package comes to my house with my plan, my fitness equipment, scale and portion control containers, a fitness tracker and a plan, including a book on me, based on the 42 point genetic test. Like what fitness will work, if I actually have the lazy gene or the fat gene, how my body breaks down starches and fats.

I still don’t believe it.

I still feel like this might be a scam.

But I also know that if this doesn’t work, nothing will; a team of experts and a custom plan. I have 9 months to lose 42 pounds.

Richard is in full support, but worries about my mental state if it doesn’t work. I can’t promise I’ll be ok, in fact I know if this doesn’t work I won’t be, but that is future Melanie’s problem.

This Melanie is going for it.

Now I need to spend the next 21 days doing what I can to lose or maintain before my plan arrives.

So far... I’m hungry and scared to eat; which is also why I’m excited to have a cognitive behavioral therapist as part of my team.

Who knew losing weight would be my big adventure?

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