It's always about the number on the scale.

There is always a positive message about loving yourself at every size. Being healthy is more important than being skinny, its just a number.

But this past week we started working with an incredible Financial Advisor and you know what kept coming up?? My weight. First it was a simple line on the budget for gym, supplements, naturopaths etc.

But then as we set up Life Insurance (how very adult) my weight kept creeping back into the conversation. And now our rates are affected, because I don't fit in to their little box, I have to have a full medical exam because of my thyroid and ratios.

I want to cry. For all the work I have put in and the number on the scale only moves one way. I try to be ok with it, because I feel 'healthy', but again and again I am punished because my genetics aren't as amazing as Richards... or anyones.

The number does matter and mine is TOO BIG.

I am too big.

Argh.

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