40+

That could mean a number of things, but sadly it means that I am over 40lbs gained this year. 

In fact, I have gained 40lbs in 7 months. Since I switched to NDT, since my thyroid numbers leveled out.

WHAT. THE. FUCK.

It was gradual-ish, a little over a pound a week. I wished it away as water weight, an off day or a wonky scale. I thought it would mellow out once the meds kicked in, but my friends they have kicked in. 

Look. Those are great numbers, normal... nothing to complain about. 

But I am up 40lbs, I am full of brain fog, wearing glasses, exhausted and grumpy. 

WHAT DO I DO NOW?

And maybe you're thinking... but muscle weighs more than fat and that is true, but I also haven't lost any inches. 

You've heard the list before of all the things I think I am doing right... but it doesn't matter. 

I didn't feel as pessimistic as I expected. I assumed my numbers would be terrible and that I could blame this crummy thyroid for all my problems, but seeing these numbers says my sweet little thyroid doesn't deserve the blame. I do. I am doing something to mess this up, I just can't figure out what. 

Do I go back to synthetic, which I never lost on, but didn't gain rapidly either? Or do I keep true? At what point do I do something? 

And what else is there? Usually when I tip the scale unfavourably I aspire to be better, but I am killing the game, meal prep, food journals, dry brushing, meditation, water intake, healthy fats, supplements, cardio and strength training. 

Please do the poll.... please decide for me.