What a whirlwind year it's been!

You deserve an update: A lengthy, detailed (read: boring) update on me.

I am going to fast forward with dot jots:

- CoVid started in March 2020 and has everything upside down. My kids have been home for 6 months and it's been a struggle to keep them optimistic and motivated

- My marriage went through the ringer with all this added stress. We started Couples 'Book Club', code for therapy and it has made all the difference. We're happy and in love again.

- I am still working at the clinic, but it has gotten exponentially harder, with screening and masks.

- School is supposed to start, but I doubt it will on time. Schools have left all their planning and prepping to the last possible second. That's all I am going to say, as I don't suspect that is a popular opinion.

- I finished with Natural thyroid having gained 60+ pounds over 8 months. I started back on Synthroid and continued to gain and feel miserable, despite having 'good' numbers.

- I am going for an MRI and seeing a specialist for Rheumatoid Arthritis, not diagnosed but a strong contender for my symptoms.

- I returned to 'Book Club', for my own mental health and it is going really well.

- I am working with an incredible Health Coach to support me and my goals *more to follow

- I found an incredible gym, with great instructors and it closed because of the sickness

- Thomas turned 7 and Zac is 4 and a half. They both ride Motorcycles, Thomas was accepted on the National Ninja Warrior Team. I am one proud Mama.

- We started working with a Financial Advisor to ease the stress of adulting and bills. It is going well and has also impacted my marriage dramatically

- I hate guacamole

- We're renovating our bedroom to be a natural space, with live wood and plants throughout, so I can be in natural 12 months of the year

That is the year you've missed. I will work on a follow-up post for the specifics I want to share.

Love,

Meloesque

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