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Frank the follow up

Frank is still a thing, it's been 3 months since my last post and still I have no good news.

It is the most frustrating experience, I started in June on a quest to get my thyroid functioning and my life in order. I know all of my obsessions will be solved with an active thyroid. My biggest obsession is my weight and my appearance; as I am learning neither will be what I want as long as I have a defunct system.

I drink 6+ litres of water a day, I sleep 8+ hours a night, I exercise for 30 minutes everyday (I practice active recovery), I track everything I consume, I meal prep and calorie count. My NRF2 is activated. I supplement with NDT and still take my Synthetic Thyroid. I work with a Naturopath, Dietitian, Kinesologist, Psychologist and more... I am sure there is more.

All of that and in the last 2 months I have only gained, inches and pounds.

I am working to curb my obsession; I can only weigh in once a week and I have to listen to my body when it comes to strength training. I am allowed a treat and it's not failure (even though it feels like it). I have to talk about my thoughts to someone who will listen. I can't 'fast' or cleanse.

AND I AM STILL GAINING CONSISTENTLY.

I started the New Year with my Naturopath and the urge to switch completely to the *NDT (Natural Discated Thyroid) and get off the synthetic.

 She's not sure what to do with me, as my numbers don't always make sense (your TSH, T4 and T3 should be relative to each other, but mine never are; example: We increased my T4 intake and my results showed no change to my T4 and TSH, while my T3 plummeted. We increased again and then my T4 didn't change, my T3 dropped and my TSH increased substantially). 




So we had to run more tests, this time with a check for my TPO Antiobodies, suspecting my immune system might be attacking my thyroid and causing these results, which would explain my numbers, but complicate my treatment, because then it's not a thyroid disorder, but an autoimmune disorder.


I am feeling lost and all my effort feels wasted until we can resolve.

Then that feels like wasted hope, because in 10 years, it hasn't helped... I don't want to pause my efforts waiting for a magical answer and get no where. I also don't want to keep spinning my wheels... its exhausting.

I start on Friday with a new doctor, let's hope they have an idea of what to do next.

-Melp

*The NDT offers a combination of T3 and T4 that is closer to what our bodies create (well at least functional bodies create). Synthetic Thyroid is just T4, the inactive horomone. 


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