It's a Healthy-esque Thing

At the start and end of every challenge my gym completes a scan and as an information junky, I am ALL in. I have a basic scale at home that only tells me how much my entire system weighs -- somedays that doesn't move, some weeks and months it doesn't move.  I take my measurements monthly, but even that doesn't capture what is happening on the inside.  I have shifted my goals to be more about the composition of my body, not just the overall weight. I want to lose fat, gain lean muscle and increase my BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) to keep this engine running smoothly. This year I have focused more on what is going on inside. I want to lower my heartrate recovery time, I want to increase my endurance, I want lift all the heavy things. I want energy, better sleep and a clear mind.  Let's have a look at the facts... Total Body Water - I think this number is important to maintain, but really just depends on how much water I drink in a day. My goal is to drink between 3 and 4 li

 I've been quietly (not at all quietly in the real world, but quietly in the blogesphere) working on myself.  I went down an unhealthy spiral, I lost focus on my goals and felt heavy in my body, literally and figuratively. I didn't realize how far I had slipped from my goals until much later on in the adventure. I went days without leaving the house only talking to people on screens, I felt hopeless, isolated and sad, but I wasn't doing anything about it but complaining.  I was working with a dietitian who was very anti-diet and great for seeing things as they are, but horrible for boosting morale. Her stance was I needed to change my goals and accept my body as it was. I understand appreciating your body at any size, but when it is hindering your dreams, I can't get on the acceptance band wagon. I want more out of life and sadly a lot of my big dreams have a weight restriction, I don't want to be the girl that lives a quiet life because the things she wants are out